Walking through Loss
“For God alone my soul waits in silence;
from him comes my salvation.
He alone is my rock and my salvation,
my fortress; I shall not be greatly shaken.”
It breaks our hearts to share this update with you. About a month ago, we found out that our son we have been praying for, advocating for, and anticipating adopting is not coming home with us. The discrepancy we discussed earlier this year has grown to being a larger issue, and the Haitian government has determined he is no longer eligible for adoption. We pray this is because a member of his biological family is bringing him home, but we do not know that definitively - and likely never will, which makes this transition even harder. All we know is his referral has been pulled by the government. We have gone through all the stages of grief it seems. Our girls are amazing and have responded very age appropriately. As parents, we are grieving as if we have lost a child - because we have. This has been challenging for our faith as well. We pray that the time we got to spend with him was positive for his life going forward. We hope that the prayers for his wellbeing, for his growth and safety, and yes for his salvation are not in vain; we trust that God is using it for his good. God loves this little guy even more than we do, and He has good plans for us all.
Please be praying for us - we really need it! As far as what’s next, we don’t know. Not sure what it will be or what we choose to navigate. Right now, we are banding together stronger than ever, working to put one foot in front of the other, and to seek God’s good plans. This means at times that things seem to be ok, and other times we feel like we need to crawl into bed and cry for a day. Thank you for walking with us. It’s been an arduous journey, but we will keep moving forward the best we can. We choose to press onward, together. We are hopeful to still continue this adoption adventure towards Pauko Party of Five.
